Feeling Up

Do you ever have the feeling that something... something big... is on its way? I have been having it for awhile and I've had some great stuff happen lately, but I keep feeling like something else is hapenning. I can't fully explain, but I know it's there.

Let me tell you why I love this feeling. So often in the past (and even occasionally now) I walk around with a feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach. It most certainly is not the best feeling to live with on a regular basis and I'd much rather have a feeling of anticipation of something coming down the road rather than dreading what's around the corner.

I'm not unrealistic enough to think that everything in my future is going to be rosy. It's never been that way. I believe it's the universe's way of balancing itself out. If everything is good, I wouldn't appreciate good things as much as I do. Conversely, if everything is bad, life would be unbearable.

This morning, I've already gotten big hugs from my kids. If that isn't awe-inspiring, I don't know what is. The fact that I've been entrusted with these two beautiful (albeit precocious) gifts is still unbelievable to me. Especially when they tell me things like "I love you, Mommy" without a prompt from me or "Mommy, you're my best friend." My heart swells now just thinking about it.

But like I said, something is coming. I don't know what it is, but I'm sure you will all know when it happens.