This is a very big day for me. My little girl is going to school. I cannot express the range of emotions so far (but I can also guarantee other mothers know EXACTLY what I'm talking about here). It's going to be an interesting day to say the least. Now, granted she's just going to Pre-K and it's only for 2 1/2 hours, 3 days a week. But still... it's the concept of it all. The fact that she is going to "school." That she has a backpack full of school supplies and a pile of new school clothes. That she is talking about what she'll ask her teachers and what she wants to do with her classmates. This is mind-blowing for me!
As a mother, I am thrilled for her. I'm also terrified. We've pretty much only had private babysitters. We tried a daycare once and it was a nightmare. I know it's not indicative of all daycares, just that one, but we decided to stick with private babysitters after that. With all the fears running through my head, I feel like it's MY first day of school, not just hers. I'm worried about things like "what if the other kids are mean to her?" "What if she gets really frustrated like she tends to if she can't figure something out right away?" "Will she like it?" "Will she listen?"
I realize I am not the first mom to have these thoughts and worries. I realize that I need to be a positive role model in this for her and not cry and embarass her - not that she would care, but I still don't want to cry. I'll at least wait until I get back in the car. I also realize that I am not the only mom having these thoughts today. Lots of moms are probably typing the exact same things I am today.
Regardless, it's going to be a big day. For her and for me. Looks like we're both growing up.