Some days you just want someone to talk to.
Someone who gets it.
Someone who understands.
Someone who can relate.
Someone that you don't have to explain every detail to, that you can connect with like they've been on this journey right beside you.
I know how hard it is.
I've been there. I am there. I know about the heartache, the isolation, the frustration, the fear. I know the dull ache that is your constant companion through the days and the fact that sleep doesn't even provide relief at times.
I know about all the well-meaning "advice" you get from people who have no clue what you're going through. I know what it is like to bite your tongue when someone gives you a platitude because they don't know what else to say.
I k now what it's like to be the recipient of hurtful things that are said, even when they are spoken with the best of intentions. I know what it's like to be the subject of gossip and speculation and have your every move judged.
I know the feeling of grief that washes over you at the most unexpected times. I know the heart-wrenching feeling of talking about death with your children, trying to explain something to them that doesn't even make sense to you.
I know the guilt you feel when you find yourself smiling again. I know the deep desire to move forward with your life even when everything is crashing down around you.
I know all of this, because I've lived all of it. And so much more.
If you're in a position where you need someone to chat with, email me. No strings attached, no mailing list additions (unless you want me to add you).
Consider me your digital widow pen-pal.
If you don't want to talk, that's ok too. Know that I'm holding you in my heart anyway and thinking of you often. You can join the private Facebook group I started or you can join my email list if you feel called to do so.
But like I said... if you need someone to talk to. Here's my email: firstname.lastname@example.org.
Keep breathing, keep moving, keep hoping.
I'll see you there.